Finding balance

With great surprise I have found
That contained within my chest
I still have a beating heart

Recently awoken by a random encounter
Joy is slowly pouring back in to my life
Drip by drip it’s filling up every moment of my life

Much has been lost throughout life
With that loss came wisdom
But what is wisdom, compared to love

Not even the wisests among us
Can balance his needs versus his duties
It eludes me, but it is crucial to find

The heart says to drink my fill while I can
Not pausing at all, not even for one breath
Intoxicate myself without regards of others

My mind knows, that drinking too much, too fast
From this new source of joy and love
Might drain it completely, and me with it

How can I find the strength
To resist what my heart desire
And avoid a potential disaster

Possibly making it final

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Now you’re gone

So this is it, my time has come..?
Time to say goodbye to all I’ve known
We had bad days, but some where good
I messed up everything, it’s understood

I really tried, to do what was right
I tried to not give up without a fight
You went away, just disappeared
Life turned out just the way I feared

Now I’m still here, but you are gone
You said goodbye, and now I’m alone
Here’s something to remind you
Everything I did, I did for you

And now you’re gone

Rear Mirror

You had a choice
And you chose to leave
I will spend a lifetime
Trying to understand why

Did you leave in despair?
Did I push you away?
Were you scared?
Or just bored?

Will I find the answer?
Will it satisfy me?
Is all I really want to hear,
that it wasn’t my fault?

Am I just looking for a way,
To absolve my own guilt?
Or to better myself,
And maybe win you back?

Skin (Sixx A.M)

Paint yourself a picture
Of what you wish you looked like
Maybe then they just might
Feel an ounce of your pain

Come into focus
Step out of the shadows
It’s a losing battle
There’s no need to be ashamed

‘Cause they don’t even know you
All they see is scars
They don’t see the angel
Living in your heart

Let them find the real you
Buried deep within
Let them know with all you’ve got
That you are not your skin

And when they start to judge you
Show them your true colors
And do on to others
As you’d have done to you

Just rise above this
Kill them with your kindness
Ignorance is blindeness
They’re the ones that stand to lose

‘Cause they don’t even know you
All they see is scars
They don’t see the angel
Living in your heart

Let them find the real you
Buried deep within
Let them know with all you’ve got
That you are not your skin

Well they don’t even know you
All they see is scars
And they don’t see the angels
Living in your heart

So let them find the real you
Buried deep within
Let them know with all you’ve got
That you are not
You are not your skin

Broken Dreams

You were so full of life
With a child’s enthusiasm
You planned for the future
Every detail laid out

I didn’t see your fear
The fear of failure
That maybe reality
Wouldn’t fit your dreams

Fear of disappointments
Were killing you inside
Dreams scattered
Slowly withering away

I wish you had trusted
That just being with you
Was all I ever needed
My dream, was you

Dreams crumbled to dust
Swept away by the idea
That you were not enough
My memories of you remains

How happy you once were
When hopes and dreams
Was a reality in making
Only in your mind

Part 2: “Loving A Highly Sensitive Person” can now be read at My Scoiopath

Talk to me

What happened to us?
Where did we go wrong?
You used to talk to me
Now you’re shutting me out
There’s a distance between us
A void I can’t reach through
Are we losing each other?

What happened to us?
Where did we go wrong?
You don’t listen anymore
Distancing yourself from me
Making me feel guilty
For things I haven’t done
Are we losing each other?

Today I’m a guest writer at the blog My Sociopath, where I write about one of the issues that can arise in a relation between two people where one of them is an HSP person. This poem is related to that article, please check it out at My Sociopath

I, Sociopath

I see you. I want you. I need you.
You are my new obsession, my latest challange
I need to know. Every. Litte .Thing.
Tell me your hopes, dreams and secrets

Trust me

I’ll even go first
My mother, my father, my brother
They hated me
My friends feared me

Empathy. Can you feel it?

I will tell you the struggle of my life
Hated and feared, an outsider
My secrets thrown at you
Drown in my misery

True or not? Does it matter?

It’s so very effective
You can feel it now, can’t you?
Empathy. Sympathy. Trust.
Trust me!

Open up to me
You can tell me anything
I won’t judge you
Talk to me

Your shell cracked. Finally!

Your fears, I love them!
Your shame, so sweet
Your emotions, I envy them
Your dreams, I’ll break them!

Was it all just a lie?

It was true enough
Fulfilling my purpose
Attaching myself to you
Leeching on your soul

I know you inside and out

You have no strength left
No more joy in life
No more air to breath
You are alone, with me

I hate you!

For being everything I’m not
For feeling everything I can’t
So I took it all away
And made you as empty as I am

Moving on now, to the next you