I see through everything you are
Know every thought you have
All your desires in my mind
You are completely exposed
With just a word, I can make you cry
A smile from me will make your day
You have given yourself completely
Your happiness in my hands
I see what no one else has seen
I have seen what’s in your heart
I see you, exactly the way you are
And I will never let you down
Does it hurt you to care, does it hurt you to make me happy?
To say you love me, does it take anything from you?
Even though you do and say those things, it doesn’t change who you are
It doesn’t make things harder or easier for you
It’s not going to kill you to make my life a little better before I die
It would only enhance my life, make me feel I’m loved and wanted
That everything hasn’t been a waste. Do you tell yourself it’s worth it?
To give a dying person a little comfort, a little happiness
Even if I did have your love and your heart someone else gets the rest of you
I worry it’s all just empty words and phrases, told to relieve a tormented soul
Pain and suffering are my burden, pain for what I want and will never have
Suffering for knowing I will never feel your touch, your hugs, your kisses
Never hear your heart beat or feel your breath on my skin
All I’ll ever be is a whisper, a faint memory, locked up in the darkest corner
Safeguarded like a treasure never to be shared, all I have is dreams
Cobwebs will be wiped away from time to time when remembrance comes to visit
Light shines for a brief moment
A smile given, a tear shed
Before darkness comes calling once more
You will live on long after I’m gone
My words are drowning in the chaos inside me
I am hurting every minute of every day
I have to believe there is a reason
I have to believe someday it will end
I’m afraid i will give in and let the turmoil win
The chaos within, visible to no one, seen only by you
My voice, silent to the world, heard only by you
The journey i must take, lost on the path, found only by you
My pain, unknown to everyone, known only by me
I will take the pain, accept the hurt and the tears
I will gladly give my life for you to live
Can I hold your hand for awhile
Sit together without words
Nothing lost between us
Can we just breath for awhile
Together cleanse our minds
Fear of dreaming, no more
Sit by my side for awhile
Let me stay the night
Keep me close to you
Tomorrow will be alright
You brought sleepless nights to me
My chest is a vacuum, drained from life
I can’t breathe, I can’t think, I can’t sleep
You showed me a picture of our home, our life
You painted us a future, sang a song of love
A warm, safe place for us to call our own
You are my religion, you are my savior
Stopped breathing, to see if you’d revive me
If your picture wasn’t true, leave me be
A few more minutes, just heartbeats away
My life in your hands, all my hope with you
The silence is numbing, eyes are tearing up
Your breath in my lungs, I belong to you
I caused a chain reaction in your life
Events that were not supposed to happen
Tears that should have never been shed
Pain that was never to be felt by you
Losses that can never be forgiven
With my best intentions for you
I hurt you more than anyone
Every day of my life I’ve been searching
For something I never thought I’d find
Gave up my life for what I believed in
Made misstakes that can never be undone
Every day, a new day with no meaning
How many days until I never wake up again?
Often I wonder, how long would it take
Until they find me breathless in my bed
Who would know, and who would care
I’s been a harsh and lonely road to walk
I felt like breaking down and cry
And run til I could run no more
Out of nowhere you came in to my life
A blessing from heaven, and smiled at me
Chased away my lonliness with a wink
Those eyes revealed secrets I desdesired
Lips told me words I never heard before
Your body answered the call of my heart
You gave me a reason to fight, to breath
I lost myself in a heartbeat to you
A seed of hope you planted inside me
My heart no longer unbreakable
I took a chance and gave it to you
For you to cherish or break it at will
My life ran out of me when I got the news
Like sleeping beauty you will not wake up
No more laughter,no pain or fear
I take your hand ,refusing to let go
Whispering your name ,I can’t reach you
Silence is screaming inside my head
I cry and I pray but its all the same
Your voice forever lost to my ears
My lips never again kissed by you
All that remains of you is in my head
You have found your safe place now
Will you be there waiting for me?
The world is broken, you are not
I’ve seen the person within your shell
That you so desperatly are trying to hide
I have made you laugh so many times
You have cried against my shoulder
I have caused you pain and heartache
But you are not broken, you are pure
You did nothing wrong, you loved
Betrayed by the world, but not broken
I know who you are deep inside
Will you ever come back to the surface
Or did I chase you away forever
I’m here, waiting, always here, day and night
Crying, laughing, but always waiting for you
I know you’ll come one day, my heart tells me so
Once you get here, you’ll find me waiting for you
I’m not alone, because in mind mind we’re together
You are always there with me, in my dreams
I can see you, struggeling real hard to get to me
I know you’ll make it, strong as you are
A couple of years have passed, but I have faith
Waiting, hoping, praying, that any day now
Any day, you’ll knock on my door
And finally, I will open my heart and let you in
Until we meet again... 